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[An open letter from and for you]
There was the time that you so caught up with everything and all you wanted to do is just relax. By cleaning your own room, place. Mind palace. “You shouldn’t be stubborn like this,” Remind yourself, as you take that little high school notebook you keep, “maybe just this once.”. Procrastination didn’t knows boundaries and you let yourself just dive in. Unconsciously, looking for old stuff you did in 10 years ago. You don’t feel the time is running fast, you just know it from the tip of fingers. You touch every yellow pages that supposed to be white back then, you smell the vintage of your flower collection, blow every dust that covered Great Gatsby, find out small eggs in one of your bucket stuff… It just a time machine in disguise.
You usually come up with such a quirky idea, and ended it up in a lot of sheets. It’s not that you couldn’t effort a notebook, it just how you play with your mind. The wonders you keep asking and some pile of to do list are one of those thing you keep in your bucket. The used one, that full of red line, been in trashed since you barely used red pen. The blank one, you keep it as souvenir. And the other used one, with your cute original character holding some plank with their own “subject”, making you stop. It’s been a decade since you checking it out, the 10 years bucket list. “18 years of me, let’s see what we got now.” Said 28 years old version of you, as you turn the pages. Giggled, you find it really funny because it based on alphabetical order instead of some relevant category or just “you feel about it” arrangement. That’s so not like you today.
BUCKET LIST
Hay, I just want you to know that achieving these list completely is just a whole another level version of you. Well, no offence, I mean, this is just to much for me to handle. I hope that you can chunk it a bit and giving some “add-and-mix” s*** you know, lol. Bon chance : )
Chief editor of architecture magazine
You don’t know how much I missed this cute little mafioso family! I mean, I didn’t make it to chief editor, but being the part of CASA Indonesia and found out that they just awesome, it just really a fresh air for a fresh graduate like me back then. Not mentioning how your Italian language is really helpful and until this day, I still having a contact with Ms. Franca and Mr. Romero.
Friends reunion
I never gets tired to always asking them “who is dead?” while people just asking like “how you doing?” (boy, it never been so gayer before), or “who’s marrying who?” or “Remember that back then we used to… (add embarrassment moment)?!”. Some of them are gone, and it is so quickly that you start to look at yourself. Asking about what’s going on while you know exactly the answer. I thing you are not confused, you are just shocked. And it still bothering me that I don’t feel the fear as much as I do in 10 years ago.
IELTS — GRE
Yeah, it’s awesome! I wish I could make a money out of it.
Intern abroad
Well, let see. Even know I still dreaming of it, but instead I got an Au pair. Sort of messy but, proud of it. You can put it on your guilty pleasure list because it sucks and you really into that shit. Hey, don’t call me rude, okay? I’m just trying to be honest with you, au pair is sucks!
Married with foreigner
It started with a shady-language-learning website and turns out I got so hyped that ended up with dating situation. I mean, you can’t even say this is dating, it’s sort of renting. Dang, I hate to say this but FELICITATION, your 28 years old version of you been renting a bunch of boyfriends-girlfriends since god-knows-when! Just so you know that, you are not that cool playgirl from Sex and The City show, I mean, it just boosting your self-esteem by flirting too much. Well, it sounds like playgirl already, help me…
Master “Master” and Master-Joint degree
Yeah, double degree my ass. Apparently, they do this sort of, again, shady stuff you know. You need like an “insider” for just put your CV on their desk. I mean, screw that! Should try that Aladeen-partly-funded intern abroad, mdr. But look at the bright side, your master graduation just full of Edensor-wannabe vibe and you look really hot in backpack. And yeah, you smell funny too so… Anyway, you just got M.sc for such a-sounds-like-art-to-me-than-science major and that’s ridiculously a great deal. It’s funny if you rethink about why you took a master in Politecnico di Milano. Your main aim is just the master-Joint degree from ALA. It’s a combination between 3 major from 4 institutions: Architecture, Landscape and Archaeology from university of Rome Sapienza, university of Coimbra, National Technical University of Athens and University of Naples Federico II and associated partners. I must say that this is sounds more fancy than I thought.
More creative
There’s a chance that you will die tomorrow, and this mindset just trigger me out to be more creative than before. I mean, it’s like I’m on the edge of crisis and this sort of situation tend to sparking some old-clumsy brain neurons that always in hibernate mode. But this kind of behavior impacting hearth more than I thought. It just won’t stop rushing when it comes to due day and that’s what the perk of being a procrastinator. You are the slave of feeling and what they called “inspiration”. You so believe in it that you could be a priest of new religion called Inspirationism. What a sect.
Olympic participant
I bet you always had this eager to ride the wind, or even run with it. But have you imagine riding yourself? Because that’s what you got when it comes to marathon. You are not the participant, you just…apparently you just a f’kin participant. Stop philosophizing and start grown up! Here’s what you got: Marathon de Colmar, Trail de la Vallee du Cele and Ttutturru Trail.
Polyglot of 10 languages
Yeah, let’s wrap it up: Arabic B2, French B2, Italy B2, Japanese N2, Norway B1, Hebrew B1, Poland B1, Welsh A2, and still counting… (not to mention about traditional languages).
Read Silmarillion
You can’t even dare to comparing it with Dungeons & Dragon genre, you know. It just so deep and more profound than you expected. And don’t get me started with their details map and intriguing family trees with their distinct ancestry, you’ll end up with such an awe.
South-east backpacker
I knew that it’s been like a thousand times that people mentioning about this but, have you realize you look gorgeous in that sweet pants? How come that such insignificant opus guided you through Bonaparte’s subcontinent, gazing great-red-bear, having a chai with sultanate, course by the Balkan and stay sane? I feel like Hirata never been this so proud of his readers. You don’t know how many tears can Edensor make due to promising some sweat crap about back-f’kin-packer. Owh, speaking about Asia, they got this cute little triangle area that named after gold but apparently there’s no gold there, but they have the best marijuana though. 420!
Translator in IAI
I’ve never been this proud to be exposed with Bonaparte’s and Mussolini’s wits before.
Live long and prosper!
Sincerely, your 18 years old version
I was confidence that it would be fail, I would be a failure. And the dearest part of me will leave me without knowing how cruel this could be if we didn’t stick together. I wipe myself, try to find the comforts of Grizzly’s plushie. I thought it would be great to making it a week away from your new bucket list. But the nights changing you, and getting yourself a note…
- Please love what you do and do what you love
2. Tell him you love him
3. Keep your live as exciting, adventurous and simulate as video game. There’s a lost, win and mostly the good game… never tiring to TRY :3
Live long and prosper!
Sincerely, your 28 years old version
[Made by your 22 years old version]